{"id":8077,"date":"2010-09-15T19:34:14","date_gmt":"2010-09-16T02:34:14","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.seamheads.com\/?p=8077"},"modified":"2010-09-17T15:22:24","modified_gmt":"2010-09-17T22:22:24","slug":"how-does-it-feel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/seamheads.com\/blog\/2010\/09\/15\/how-does-it-feel\/","title":{"rendered":"How Does It Feel?"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.seamheads.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/howdoesitfeel.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-8078\" title=\"howdoesitfeel\" src=\"http:\/\/www.seamheads.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/howdoesitfeel.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"450\" height=\"392\" srcset=\"https:\/\/seamheads.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/howdoesitfeel.jpg 450w, https:\/\/seamheads.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/howdoesitfeel-300x261.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 450px) 100vw, 450px\" \/><\/a>&#8220;Numbers  merely describe the surface of baseball . . . No incisive statistical  pocketknife, wielded however skillfully, can dissect and reveal the  heart of baseball to the serious souls who study the game.&#8221;<\/p>\n<div style=\"text-align: right;\">David Baldwin, <em>Snake  Jazz<\/em><\/div>\n<table>\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<p>For the  past few months I&#8217;ve been studying baseball and reading its literature  almost exclusively, at the expense of all the other fine books that are  calling to be enjoyed. \u00c2\u00a0 Sometimes I feel sad that I&#8217;ll never understand  everything about this game (as I&#8217;ve already lamented in an earlier <a href=\"http:\/\/watchingthegame.typepad.com\/my-blog\/2010\/05\/understanding-the-game.html\">post<\/a>).\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0  There&#8217;s just not enough time in one lifetime to know it.\u00c2\u00a0 The subject  is too vast, the writers too many.<\/p>\n<p>The sheer volume of <a href=\"http:\/\/www.ronkaplansbaseballbookshelf.com\/\">baseball books<\/a> is  overwhelming.\u00c2\u00a0 Just ask my blogger friends, who write <a href=\"http:\/\/www.baileysbaseballbookreviews.com\/\">reviews<\/a> on a <a href=\"http:\/\/www.booksonbaseball.com\/\">regular basis<\/a>.\u00c2\u00a0 You could  become a doctor of philosophy and still not have read the entire  repertoire that includes histories, biographies, essays, fiction,  creative nonfiction, sabermetrics, the sports pages, lyric and narrative  poetry, autobiography, and memoir.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Not to mention the day&#8217;s news and  stats unfolding at a rapid clip even as I write this.<\/p>\n<p>Every  author, like every fan, has his or her angle on the game,\u00c2\u00a0 Through words  we attempt to access baseball, know it more intimately, get at the  heart and truth of it. \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Our work  is fundamentally not so different from fans who actively seek  autographs, wear vintage uniforms, stumble over others when lunging for  foul balls, and share countless unsolicited memories (&#8220;I saw Lowe&#8217;s  no-hitter at Fenway&#8221; &#8230;\u00c2\u00a0 &#8220;I met Bob Feller HoF &#8217;62 in Winter Haven&#8221;) &#8211;  as if such experiences link us to greatness; as if these connections  endow our own underwhelming lives with a little more importance, which  in fact they do. \u00c2\u00a0 We touch it or write it in order to make it real. \u00c2\u00a0  &#8220;I was there.&#8221; \u00c2\u00a0 &#8220;I shook her hand.&#8221; \u00c2\u00a0 &#8220;I wrote his story.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>The  library of baseball literature is a  formidable and intimidating place.\u00c2\u00a0 My goodness, like the game itself,  it&#8217;s a huge industry.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Mind-boggling.\u00c2\u00a0 Here&#8217;s a list of just a few works I&#8217;ve enjoyed  this summer, in no particular order:<\/p>\n<ul>\n<li>Jonathan Eig, <em>Luckiest  Man<br \/>\n<\/em><\/li>\n<li>Barbara Gregorich, <em>Women at Play<\/em><\/li>\n<li>Robert Creamer, <em>Babe<\/em><\/li>\n<li>Edward Achorn, <em>Fifty-Nine in &#8217;84<\/em><\/li>\n<li>Stephen King, <em>Blockade Billy<\/em><\/li>\n<li>Martha Ackmann, <em>Curveball: The Remarkable Story of Toni Stone<\/em><\/li>\n<li>Josh Wilker, <em>Cardboard Gods<\/em><\/li>\n<li><em>Baseball Prospectus<\/em> (stats plus stories)<\/li>\n<li>Dorothy Seymour Mills, <em>Chasing Baseball<\/em><\/li>\n<li><em>The Baseball Research Journal <\/em>(SABR)<\/li>\n<li>Joe Posnanski, <em>The Soul of Baseball<\/em><\/li>\n<li>S. L. Price,<em> Heart of the Game<\/em><\/li>\n<li>Kevin Kerrane, <em>Dollar Sign on the Muscle<\/em><\/li>\n<li>Hank Aaron,<em> I Had a Hammer<\/em><\/li>\n<li>John Underwood<em>, It&#8217;s Only Me:\u00c2\u00a0 The Ted Williams We Hardly Knew<br \/>\n<\/em><\/li>\n<\/ul>\n<p>Worthy subjects, wonderful stories, so many of them masterfully  told.\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0 My mind is hungry for this stuff, my heart too.<\/p>\n<div>\n<p>Authors  accumulate prodigious amounts of evidence, their stories meticulously  researched and lovingly crafted, as they seek to do justice to their  subjects and bring baseball to life for the rest of us.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 We come to know the &#8220;truth&#8221; of a ballplayer&#8217;s existence, including flaws of character and redemptive  strengths.<\/p>\n<p>The artful telling of a baseball story often  dignifies the raw material of human life. \u00c2\u00a0 Baseball authors can be Prosperos who turn Calibans into Apollo-like  legends.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Men who chew and spit and live recklessly on the road become aggrandized and mythologized  through the magic of the printed word.\u00c2\u00a0 The subjects are great men and  women by many measures, yet like Caliban, they &#8220;suffer a sea-change \/  Into something rich and strange&#8221; (<em>The Tempest<\/em>, I,ii,565), the real truth of a life remaining somewhat elusive, never completely  accessible.<\/p>\n<p>We measure  individual performance in words, numbers, and dollars in an effort to  reach the game&#8217;s soul.\u00c2\u00a0 Baseball  careers are thoroughly analyzed, assessed and interpreted;\u00c2\u00a0 yet\u00c2\u00a0 even upon reading or hearing the most  complete analyses and narratives, we remain one step removed from  reality.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n<p>How  refreshing, then, to come upon a ballplayer who writes his own story and does it well.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 No ghost  writer; no co-author; no tell-all celebrity gossip. How refreshing to  have a comprehensive, first-hand account.\u00c2\u00a0 The game itself.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 The man  himself.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 The player who played for real, who knew it in the truest  ways it can\u00c2\u00a0 be known.\u00c2\u00a0 No intermediary through whom we view one life&#8217;s  complexities.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Lots of former players tell their stories, of course,  but the really good ones don&#8217;t come along often.<\/p>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.snakejazz.com\/about.php\">Snake Jazz<\/a> is the  sustained and compelling story of one man&#8217;s experience in the game. The\u00c2\u00a0  somewhat discursive narrative is beautifully paced, beginning with the  early years when a quiet only child &#8211; a relatively shy young lad named <a href=\"http:\/\/www.baseball-almanac.com\/players\/player.php?p=baldwda01\">David  Baldwin<\/a> &#8211; threw day in and  day out to\u00c2\u00a0 a home-made box in the Arizona desert, as if there were  nothing in life he would rather do.<\/p>\n<p>Baldwin takes his time reliving  the journey, giving generous and equal amounts of attention to\u00c2\u00a0 every  stage of his baseball life.\u00c2\u00a0 He entertains the reader with the childhood  pickup games we&#8217;ve all played, including the pointless arguing that  often precedes those games, especially when <em>boys<\/em> are playing.\u00c2\u00a0  (I know it well, I used to hear those amusing conversations outside my  study every single evening in spring, wondering why in the world they  spent so much time arguing.)<\/p>\n<p>The author seems in no  particular hurry to rush us to the big leagues, because that wasn&#8217;t his  experience either.\u00c2\u00a0 The imagery of childhood is important:\u00c2\u00a0 makeshift  fields, dust in the eyes, the hazards of cactus and rattlesnake, the  dogs who took to the outfield for lack of human players,\u00c2\u00a0 and the girls  known as &#8220;pigtails&#8221; who served &#8220;honorably&#8221; as backstops.<\/p>\n<p>How does it feel?<\/p>\n<p>That&#8217;s the  question reporters always seem to ask first, whether it&#8217;s LLWS, CWS, ALCS, or a walk-off win on  any field. \u00c2\u00a0 As if a ballplayer actually wants to talk about his  feelings moments after finishing the game.\u00c2\u00a0 As if emotions spoken into a microphone are the ultimate significance in a  game that&#8217;s mostly about numbers.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 <em>Wow, I don&#8217;t know what to say, this so awesome.\u00c2\u00a0 O man,  it&#8217;s unreal.\u00c2\u00a0 Unbelievable.\u00c2\u00a0 A dream come true.<\/em><\/p>\n<p>How does it  feel to work your way up, slowly and methodically, suffering set-backs  and injuries, demotions and releases and trades; making adjustments and  profound changes in your delivery and in your personal life? \u00c2\u00a0 How does  it feel?<\/p>\n<p>Here&#8217;s a book that gives you a clear sense of how things feel.\u00c2\u00a0 Not in that emotional sound bit  kind of way that microphones want to hear, but in the equally important tactile meaning of the word.\u00c2\u00a0 Touch.\u00c2\u00a0 The  physical feel of the ball and the physics of the game &#8211; whether he&#8217;s throwing a slider or a  looping curve or some other snake jazz, using an overhand or sidearm or  submarine delivery.\u00c2\u00a0 For example, Dave tells us that as a child, he  discovered that a lacrosse ball had a better\u00c2\u00a0 &#8220;coefficient of restitution&#8221; (19) &#8211; or &#8220;bounciness&#8221; &#8211; when it came to  throwing against the backboard.<\/p>\n<p>How does it feel to be a  ballplayer?\u00c2\u00a0 Start by learning the geography of the ball.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 If you&#8217;re a pitcher, you come to know &#8220;the  texture of the great gently rounded white plains and the narrow hourglass isthmuses lying between the red striated hills of seams&#8221; (196).\u00c2\u00a0 The  feel of a ball is something an experienced pitcher knows acutely:\u00c2\u00a0 &#8220;He  could recognize rough, overstretched skin where the ball had once been damp.\u00c2\u00a0 He could detect seams that were defectively flat or pleasantly high.\u00c2\u00a0 These tactile faculties were cultivated through hours spent stroking the ball like a seasoned gigolo &#8211; knowing every curve, crest, and cue&#8221;\u00c2\u00a0 (197).<\/p>\n<p>How does it feel?\u00c2\u00a0 Let&#8217;s go a  little further inward: \u00c2\u00a0 &#8220;Bad luck feels like failure as much as good  luck feels like success&#8221; (80).<\/p>\n<p>Success on a championship high  school team (Tucson, Arizona).\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Two devastating losses in the College  World Series (vs two formidable rivals, Texas and Oklahoma State).\u00c2\u00a0  Whether the venue be Omaha or Tulsa, northern Mexico or Niagara Falls, we experience success and bad luck,  victories, setbacks, promotions, releases, temporary homes, adjustments,  six bumpy years followed by ten much smoother years.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 The geographical  sweep of Baldwin&#8217;s baseball life often seems erratic and nomadic:\u00c2\u00a0  Williamsport,\u00c2\u00a0 Buffalo, Chattanooga, Dallas, Durham, Burlington, Hawaii,  Washington, D.C., Portland, Milwaukee, Iowa, Chicago. \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 It&#8217;s not until page 233 that the former pitcher describes his first  experiences in the big leagues, at which point the pronouns change noticeably from &#8220;I&#8221; to &#8220;we.&#8221;\u00c2\u00a0 (I counted &#8220;we&#8221; eight times in ten lines of prose.)<\/p>\n<p>We encounter significant individuals at every level of the game,  including Don Larsen (whom Baldwin defeated in 11 innings), Ted Williams  in all his profane splendor, Chicken Lady and Cake Lady, various  pranksters from minor league ball, and the ever impressive Gil Hodges, who &#8220;could work miracles with a team of limited ability&#8221; (234).\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 This is something you already  know if you followed the Mets in &#8217;68 and &#8217;69, as I did.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 &#8220;I have never known another manager to plan his  strategies so thoroughly&#8221;\u00c2\u00a0 (235).  \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Naturally.\u00c2\u00a0 <a href=\"http:\/\/baseballinwartime.blogspot.com\/2009\/10\/remembering-gil-hodges.html\">Hodges<\/a> was, of course, a Brooklyn Dodger and a Marine.<\/p>\n<p>Don&#8217;t expect  to hear too many swears in <em>Snake Jazz<\/em>, if that&#8217;s what you like  (except when Ted Williams makes his appearance, and then you&#8217;ll likely  enjoy the lilting rhythm of numerous <em>bleeps<\/em>).\u00c2\u00a0 Don&#8217;t expect  sordid gossip.\u00c2\u00a0 The author displays a gentlemanly reticence about players&#8217; private lives (including his own), the more personal territory where fans don&#8217;t routinely belong anyway.<\/p>\n<p>Baldwin  includes some worthy names that may no longer be familiar &#8211; <a href=\"http:\/\/www.baseball-almanac.com\/players\/player.php?p=ribande01\">Dennis  Ribant,<\/a> for example, the RHP (5&#8242; 11&#8243;\u00c2\u00a0 165)\u00c2\u00a0 who signed my  fourth-grade autograph book at Shea Stadium a long time ago, making my  heart go aflutter when he penned his nickname: &#8220;Den.&#8221;\u00c2\u00a0 How sweet it was  to encounter him again, viewed through the eyes of a fellow player.<\/p>\n<p>With its<em> <\/em>impressive blend of dry wit and self-deprecating humor,  wise insights and solid numbers, <em>Snake  Jazz<\/em> is no facile exercise in self-congratulation and  self-aggrandizement.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 While  implicitly addressing the meaning of greatness, Dave Baldwin questions  common assumptions about &#8220;talent,&#8221; quietly arguing that true achievement  in baseball is as much a matter of &#8220;throwing at the box&#8221; as it is a fortuitous blessing of  genetics, excellent eyesight, and &#8220;many mitochondria in the neurons&#8221;\u00c2\u00a0 (65).\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Baldwin&#8217;s  latter career as a geneticist is often manifested in his intelligent  prose.<\/p>\n<p>We have grown to expect greatness as a given.\u00c2\u00a0 I  love greatness and heroism and characters of epic stature, especially  in literature and in sports too, but who ever said a ballplayer has to  be great?\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 I get a little tired  of hearing men in chairs talk about greatness.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Of daily predictions of who&#8217;s going to make it into the Hall.\u00c2\u00a0 And who&#8217;s not.<\/p>\n<p>What&#8217;s wrong with being good?\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0  Whatever happened to being just plain good?\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 So-called greatness often  comes at great expense &#8211; to others, to self.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Or so it seems to me.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Sometimes we lose sight of how hard it is to  be good in this game of failure.<\/p>\n<p>How does it feel?\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 It feels good to play baseball.\u00c2\u00a0 At times  it feels downright terrible. Success feels like good luck.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Bad luck  feels like failure.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 How does it feel to get the call when it&#8217;s not the  call you&#8217;ve been hoping for, not the news you wanted to hear?\u00c2\u00a0 Instead,  you&#8217;re listening to an oft-sung refrain, and it doesn&#8217;t feel very  good:\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 &#8220;This is the hardest thing  I&#8217;ve ever had to do &#8230;.&#8221;<\/p>\n<p>I will  never have enough time\u00c2\u00a0 to read all that&#8217;s been written about baseball. \u00c2\u00a0  Not in this lifetime. \u00c2\u00a0 But in what&#8217;s left of it,\u00c2\u00a0 I like a story that feels real.\u00c2\u00a0 I like a\u00c2\u00a0  player who is just plain\u00c2\u00a0 good, at times truly great.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 Sometimes &#8211; not  always &#8211; I like a story in which there&#8217;s\u00c2\u00a0 no intermediary. \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 No  narrator except the one who lived that life. \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 The complete player.\u00c2\u00a0  The actual person.<\/p>\n<p>How does it feel?\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 When you read <em>Snake  Jazz<\/em>, you feel privileged. \u00c2\u00a0 You feel at every step of the way that  you&#8217;re reading something real and good.\u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 From the opening sentence to the  summary of lifetime statistics at the end, it&#8217;s a complete and very  satisfying story of one baseball life.\u00c2\u00a0 \u00c2\u00a0\u00c2\u00a0 How does it feel? \u00c2\u00a0 It feels real.<\/p>\n<table>\n<tbody>\n<tr>\n<td><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<tr>\n<td><\/td>\n<\/tr>\n<\/tbody>\n<\/table>\n<p><a href=\"http:\/\/www.seamheads.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/howdoesitfeel2.jpg\"><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"aligncenter size-full wp-image-8083\" title=\"howdoesitfeel2\" src=\"http:\/\/www.seamheads.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/howdoesitfeel2.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"320\" height=\"240\" srcset=\"https:\/\/seamheads.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/howdoesitfeel2.jpg 320w, https:\/\/seamheads.com\/blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2010\/09\/howdoesitfeel2-300x225.jpg 300w\" sizes=\"auto, (max-width: 320px) 100vw, 320px\" \/><\/a><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>Highly  Recommended: <\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><strong>Dave Baldwin, <em>Snake Jazz<\/em> (XLibris, 2007)<\/strong><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em><strong>Please click <a href=\"http:\/\/www.alkydair.com\/baseball.htm\">here<\/a> to view Dave  Baldwin&#8217;s artwork<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p style=\"text-align: center;\"><em><strong>(including Baseball  Art and Shakespeare Series)<\/strong><\/em><\/p>\n<p><em>Judy Johnson has taught English literature at both the high school and college  levels.   She has three grown children, a Ph.D. in Renaissance  literature from Brown University, and an agented nonfiction manuscript  called <\/em><em>&#8220;Watching the Game:  A Memoir of Family, Baseball and  Friendship.&#8221;\u00c2\u00a0 You can find more of <\/em>her work at her website, <a href=\"http:\/\/www.watchingthegame.typepad.com\/\">Watching the Game<\/a>.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>&#8220;Numbers merely describe the surface of baseball . . . 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